S. 356 Not here, but in my mind

2008-10-17T14:15:23Z

This is me & estella pre-blind robbers. After that we are too embarrassed to smile.

I have been having lots of fun with my fitti-mates! Everyday we go to the same sad corner in school and attempt to value add our WR, and do something about our slides and eat LJ's cereal. And try to take early lunch breaks?

There are so many prize moments, like manda & my dictionary.com greetings of "Hi" to random passerbys, our bad phototaking, voice overs etc!
I am tired but I'm glad I have my awesome group mates :)

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I also received my promotional results a few days back!
I should be grateful for everything? For math... well one day I will get back my game hahaha!!
My parents have been awesome, and I'm glad they've always been so understanding and liberal-ish

354 Young Love

2008-10-06T15:20:22Z

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I totally have a stye in my eye right now! And sorry if it offends you but I have to wear my geeky specs everyday until it disappears? I have no more eyes because I am super myopic (literally)

Been having lots of fun with my PW group as well! We seriously inhale food, and um well, poor Durden :(

I love papples.

253 OMFG!>!!?!?!?!?!?

2008-10-04T13:50:32Z

Oh my word STARS IS COMING

I am largely incoherent because.... this is the best thing EVER! And strangely a few weeks ago I dreamt that they were coming

Hello Torquil, Hello Amy, Hello Evan, Hello Chris, Hello Pat,
Hello Hello Hello

352 ///

2008-09-29T13:44:57Z

And nothing's gonna change,
It could be the time we're living in,
We'll never feel so safe again,
But love always remains
.
.
.

I feel so dislocated sometimes, most times
I wish I knew
.
.

Never lonely

Never yours

351 Alright!!

2008-09-27T13:27:28Z

HIYA
I've just completed my promotional exams... And everything that has happened over the past 2 days have been exceptional!

I've been watching movies,
going to Settler's,
playing more Guitar Hero,
baking cakes of Disaster,
surprising friends,
shopping
.
.
.

plus all my other favourite things.

It's really so awesome!

And crazy at the same time, how life takes on such a drastic change after just a few papers? But perhaps thats what makes my student experience that much more bearable.. the sweet, irreplacable rush of freedom after some intense weeks :)

Okay, but right now my stomach hurts
I think I ate too many mussels for dinner...

350

2008-09-19T13:50:32Z

And so I put my gameface on.

249 O HOT DAMN, THIS IS MY JAM~

2008-09-15T13:23:26Z

I could do with some of this.

Also... Lots have been happening lately but I'm really just trying to concentrate on the epic Promos which are a few days away
I KIND OF NEED DIVINE INTERVENTION.

But my friends are great (as always);
today was FLO RIDA,
pronounced florida by SOMEONE.

248 HOLA HERMANA

2008-09-07T15:02:24Z

Those were some ballin' expressions

346 You're something like a phenomena

2008-08-30T13:17:16Z

We really should be allowed to wear pyjamas to school everyday?
and also, i would like to say -_- plz grow some of your own

345 _

2008-08-24T14:59:09Z

Hahaha I can't speak French, but I appreciate Yelle!
Estella I think you would too, especially with our new electropop wave~

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The Olympics have come to an end! No more reflex checking for gymnastics/diving/swimming anymore
And no more mouths hanging open from all the amazing feats

OK anyway can't wait for london 2012! I am now kind of inspired to volunteer for the youth olympics,
it would be extreme fun if some of you guys did it too!

344 Looking Forward

2008-08-23T11:45:11Z

A few give aways:

It's hard to remember days
Mornings lost in a chronic haze
Breath is fast and the trains are slow,
I barely feel it though
All day long I fantasize
In the dark behind of other people's eyes
And then they disappear
Words get lost in the atmosphere

//

A month to go.. or less.
Everything will be okay! (please)

342 RE- hi

2008-08-19T14:08:40Z

So, my sister left for Virginia last night ... And in many ways the house seems more empty
Maybe I'm just not used to the prospect of being the only child at home, but I think I already miss her :(
(when you read this, reply my email!)

I really don't like sending people off at the airports, airports always seems full of prospect but only if you're on the right side of the gates

OK, so I really need to do something about my math and I need to continue writing my Lit essay.

Keeping you in my heart,
S.

342 ///

2008-08-16T09:39:28Z

Nothing. I am still the same.
I am still waiting, working, hoping, dreaming, sleeping

but mostly
Waiting.

341 Bubbling over

2008-08-08T16:11:08Z

Today I blowed plenty of bubbles during the National Day Celebrations, celebrations were ok I suppose! I laughed quite a lot with Gwen :) and my sister finally passed me my birthday present!

Anyway I really need to get everything organized and sorted out, so bring on the long weekend!

I accidentally popped my popper over this guy's back!
He did not even realize :")

340 Never Been Like This

2008-08-03T16:56:06Z

My heart is waiting for a new you
And there's no other option on the schedule
Love like ours should never die with years
Once you start you can't ever go backwards

Cause if dark is one then bright is two
Noone knows where we're heading to
No matter what it takes, never give up on you
I want you to change it all
I am gonna make it better
No consolation prizes

!!!

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My homework can never be finished :(
Make some noise if you want out!!!1

339 In a Thousand Street Scenes

2008-08-02T15:32:29Z

Big Kiss to everyone for the well-wishes and the letters and the gifts!
Seriously craziest gifts I've ever received.. think a ROCKING HORSE, which I had to lug around school the entire day, underwear in a cup... but then again I've got the craziest friends, in the best way possible!
:)

Thank you.

& today I am deliriously happy...

338

2008-07-30T16:01:20Z

The anticipatory feeling that happens every year, it's happening now

Hi, I turn seventeen today.

337 Illuminare

2008-07-28T14:20:47Z

Totally re-reading The Faraway Tree series in a wave of nostalgia!
Still enjoying the books immensely...
perhaps it is this sense of wonderment I never want to lose?
.
.
.

I've also decided to take my German a little more seriously (thx chups for the songs)
I've got a major exam at the end of October this year and after 2 and a half years of German lessons in school, I really want to do ok in my examinations because it is a language that I've come to appreciate, even through our tiring afternoon lessons where sometimes all Sherlene & I want to do, are go for our breaks ;) But in all honesty, German lessons are probably the only lessons that I have now that we can have more than a little laughter in.

336 When you're 29...

2008-07-24T13:06:56Z

Suddenly! I am plagued with ideas and thoughts!
And right now, I am at odds with myself, torn between choosing between whether I want to live solely for myself and stay true to my life philosophy or do things that would potentially make me.. well comfortable

I can't say I've made up my mind, I'm still young and naive and not even sure what I'm going to do tomorrow.
But all this talk about the impending future makes me a little worried because I can't seem to place myself and envision myself doing things that we're all expected to. Does education ultimately define who you become?

All I want is to be happy...............
and travel

My sister has begun to compile photos, and I'm sneakily adding photos into her "to print" folder!
Let's hope she doesn't kill me because most of the photos I have added are ridiculous!
:)

334 Favourite Things

2008-07-14T15:07:32Z

bows, peterpan collars, headbands, ballet flats, polka dots, happy photos, navy blue, maroon, purple, satin, dresses, across-body bags, tulips, milk chocolate, toby joey, cherries, gold earrings, conversations on buses, personal letters, rilo kiley, the moon, night skies, wit, pretty words, languages, books, travelling, digestive biscuits, humour, different cultures, tea cups, sheer, song xchange!, walks, friends, parties, shopping, grapes, cake.

I really like it when I take breaks off the mundane and just go a little CrAzY~!

333 Introspection

2008-07-08T13:24:58Z

Stars,
Possibly my favourite band of all time.

This year has made me seriously consider and re-think what I've been working towards
I may not always be satisfied with my capabilities, and my achievements
but in some ways, I have grown to appreciate all the little, subtle signs that direct me to where I think I should be
baby steps

Oh and I had a great time dancing today! I truly, truly enjoyed myself and I think I was kind of reminded why I enjoy dancing in the first place...
The energy and the synchronization of it all
Like how you always know what's coming next, and putting everything, everything into it

331 Dream...

2008-07-01T14:12:36Z

School has started once again for me! I seriously woke up with this huge feeling of dread... But honestly as much as school is this endless monotonous drone I subject myself to, I really am glad for (some) lessons and friends :) I'm also in the midst of getting back my results! It is terrifying!! Regardless, I will be satisfied knowing that I cannot be excellent at everything I do....
but I'll try

OK, and today has made me love my own 2 KITTIEZ more, seriously. I can't imagine home without them.

And I've been catching the Euro08 with my dad and sister and I am SO GLAD SPAIN WON!
(sorry arthi)

Also! I've been hangin' with my friends lately, and of course totally soaking up the post-exam freedom?!?!1

I really should use moses moreeeee

330 Stuck in Limbo

2008-06-25T14:34:47Z

OH wow?
My exams are very nearly over!! I've just got biology left, and after 5pm tomorrow I will totally be traipsing about town in post-exam ritual, enjoying the sweet taste of freedom..
I am really exhausted and needless to say some papers have been alright, some.. not so

But in any case, my sister has plans for me to go diving with her at underwater world after my exams! Pretty crazy right!?!?!?1 But we'll seeee hahaa :) I need somethings to actually you know, be excited about

My notes are starved for my attention, bb!

329 yay hi

2008-06-19T12:40:20Z

Sondre Lerche has the cutest lyrics ever, I have been listening to his songs all day...
And I think my favourite has to be Modern Nature! I srsly have a thing for songs with guy and girl vocals :)

! Speaking of music, TELL ME IF YOU'RE GOING FOR DEATH CAB
thx

327 Within / Without

2008-06-16T11:59:03Z

" I wanted to get out and walk eastward toward the park through the soft twilight, but each time I tried to go I became entangled in some wild, strident argument which pulled me back, as if with ropes, into my chair. Yet high over the city our line of yellow windows must have contributed their share of human secrecy to the casual watcher in the darkening streets, and I was him too, looking up and wondering. I was within and without, simultaneously enchanted and repelled by the inexhaustible variety of life. "
- The Great Gatsby

There is something I need to say, but I can't seem to find the words. I've been trying to put this into words the past few days but it just doesn't come out right, and it frustrates me. And in all that has happened over the past few days, weeks, I have gathered that no matter how much I resist, my heart will always make the decisions.
.
.

I suppose the choice that I've made... I've kind of always wanted it this way.
Oh, this all comes with growing up, learning to deal with what I really want, and coming to terms with what will truly make me happy, instead of having people tell me what all the time.

Just some more serious thoughts.

S.

356 Not here, but in my mind